when i decide to die

be brief with disbelief of how you've reached this moment

begin the never ending end

brave it, stand at attention in this fleeting time lapse of memories

abruptly, these memories shut off and with your physical vessel they fall to the ground

the all, ever, forever as well as the never

never will you mingle with the living

our fears meant nothing, yet strangled our days and dangled hopeful tomorrows just out of reach

i might choose to die tomorrow, but have been there as early as today

living a patterned, rehearsal and performing on the same stage day to day

build my buildings, refurbish the old resurrect the new

all bound to collapse

the cradle of positive outlook has crumbled beneath me